Woot, Woot! Or Non-woot, Non-woot? Tomorrow is my transfer date. Yay for FET #2?
You can just go ahead and call me an infertility veteran now. Can I get a Purple Heart or something? I'm pretty sure I'm a wounded infertility warrior.
I went to the doctor last week with the plan of having a transfer this upcoming Friday, but low and behold, my lining was thickening faster than Witch Doctor expected (I've been taking estrogen shots every three days). However, she wouldn't admit to under estimating my response to medication. She just did the usual: She Ooh'd and Awed over my lining, beamed with joy and said, "We can do this as early as Tuesday." Then she kind of put the pressure on for us to move forward with Tuesday.
I was all game, until she told me I had to start progesterone shots that night. That was a no go! I was headed to my parents house for the weekend and I was not giving myself butt shots, nor asking my mother to do it for me. I know she's seen my bottom before, but believe me---it's changed since infancy.
Soooo Witch Doctor gave me a box of progesterone vaginal inserts and sent me on my merry way. BUT, we have a second issue. She only wants to transfer two of the three remaining embryos. Ugh! I reminded her that it was her idea to transfer three, and that's why we decided to move forward. I want to use them all and just close this particular IVF/FET chapter. Per usual, Witch Doctor remained calm and told me that we'd take it step by step. If the best two don't look that great, she'll have the embryologist thaw the third, and she'll dump them all in for one big happy party.
I know for her this is an ethics issue, so four days later I tried to persuade her again. I reminded her that I'm not octomom. I don't have a history of IVF/fertility success:
1. My three-follicle IUI failed
2. My two genetically-tested embryos failed
3. I never took birth control pills (or any chemical form of contraceptives) before infertility treatment, yet I've never even been a little bit pregnant.
In not so may words, I explained that she'd be humanely disposing of said embryos, but she wouldn't bite the bait. She's sticking with her plan. So, let's all hope T & L don't have to go to the transfer dance without C (I've dubbed these embryos 'The Rotties' and 'TLC'. TLC, after the 90s r & b group, is more positive, right? Unless you think about Left Eye's demise, but I digress.)
Since my transfer is Tuesday/Tomorrow, I will only do one day of bed rest, which is against Witch Doctor's wishes. However, Dr. Google tells me that the bed rest thing is largely subjective. Each doctor has his or her own theory that really has no scientific backing. I can't take off two days. I'm coming off vacation. It's bad enough that I have to call in sick the day I'm supposed to return from vacation. I'm sure my boss will not be happy.
The best part of this all is that I'm supposed to take a pregnancy test on Christmas. LOL! I'm not doing that. Or Maybe I will. I'll have a day to sulk. I don't know. I think I'll test the 26th. That way I won't be able to have a complete meltdown because I'll have to go to work.
Ok...the real BEST part is that this will be all over before the New Year, which is what I wanted. I get a fresh start for 2014. God, I am so ready for that fresh start.
That's probably more than anyone wanted to know, but if you made it this far, thanks so much for listening.