Saturday, May 14, 2011

Introducing MrsDjRass

I'm 30 something with big dreams that i still don't know how I will achieve (like working for Oprah). BUT there is one thing I always knew I would fight for and that's having a baby. HOWEVER, I didn't realize I'd have to fight this hard!

I went to college and met my soulmate right before graduation. I married him four years later and immediately caught BABY FEVER:-) My DH wasn't really ready for a child. He said if we "happened" to get pregnant, it would be great, but we weren't technically trying. Too bad a spontaneous pregnancy wasn't in the cards for me. I had fibroids and it took four years to get diagnosed because no one wanted to believe a young, healthy African-American woman could really be battling infertility.

I just want to share my experience because no one seems to have had my issues. Every woman I've read about found out about her fibroids because of a miscarriage. Well, I've never been pregnant and the only birth control I ever used was a condom. I feared pills and hormones, so I've never taken them for pregnancy prevention. I just always figured I was quite good and responsible with the condoms. I never figured my body was the real barrier between me and a baby.

I'll use this blog to recount my experiences as I prepare to ttc again. I had surgery to remove my fibroids 2 months ago. I can't ttc until I reach month three and I'm getting anxious. I want to try. I don't want to try. I'm afraid it won't work. I'm optimistic it will work. I'm a mess and ALL I have is baby on the brain.


  1. Hi MrsDjRass ,

    My name is Madeleine Schwartz and I am a reporter who writes on reproductive issues. I am writing about how women finance IVF (including through loans and financing companies) as well as the large amount of debt many take on. I have been reading your blog posts with interest and wonder if you would be willing to talk about your experience.

    Of course I am happy to answer any questions you might have.

    All the best,
    Madeleine Schwartz

    1. Thank you for your interest.
      I am declining your offer. Financing for this is no different than financing a car or house, but I fear any article will make it seem outrageous. This is too delicate a subject matter for ridicule.