Friday, May 2, 2014

It's Over

I never understood how couples could implode, after going through so much during the infertility journey, but now I get it.   There's only so much failure you can take, before you start to reevaluate everything.

Is THIS what I want?
Is this the person I want?
Do I like this person?
Do I like me?
Do I like who I've become?
Do I like us?

If I can't have the life I dreamed of, is it time to just start from scratch?  New me? New career?  New partner?  New everything?

It's hard to focus on what's right when such a big thing continues to go wrong.  Then, new questions emerge.

How do I start over?
How do I make this pain go away?
Is there a happy ending for someone like me?