I never understood how couples could implode, after going through so much during the infertility journey, but now I get it. There's only so much failure you can take, before you start to reevaluate everything.
Is THIS what I want?
Is this the person I want?
Do I like this person?
Do I like me?
Do I like who I've become?
Do I like us?
If I can't have the life I dreamed of, is it time to just start from scratch? New me? New career? New partner? New everything?
It's hard to focus on what's right when such a big thing continues to go wrong. Then, new questions emerge.
How do I start over?
How do I make this pain go away?
Is there a happy ending for someone like me?