Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Shrink Wrapped

Holy! Crap!

I went to a shrink.  I actually went...and I hated it!!  I hated it, but I'm going back.

Here's the breakdown: She says I'm depressed.
My secret response: No shit, Sherlock.

My husband accompanied me on this particular journey and he was very helpful.  It turns out that I don't like talking face-to-face with  strangers about personal situations.  As you can probably guess,  I cried.  I cried a lot!!

She didn't talk as much as I thought she would, which was odd.  I don't know how you fill an hour with the delicate verbal dance of, "how does that make you feel?"

We laughed at her and me when it was all over, but then... I don't know.

She said people never feel better after the first session and boy was she right. I could barely get through work.  The next day? I sobbed before work.  Sobbed.
The drive to the office didn't help to calm my emotions.  So I called the shrink and made another appointment.

I don't really know how that will help. I'm in a strange place.  I needed help to continue to fail at trying to conceive and now I need help with the tragedy of it all.  A margarita is nicer, stronger and cheaper.  Of course I think the overindulgence of it causes more wrinkles and weight gain. I'm good at weight gain.


  1. Jack and I went to several sessions of counseling after our last failed IVF. We couldn't decide if we wanted to or even could do anymore treatment. We never came away with an answer (that came much later) but she said one thing that was so helpful. She told me to rewrite my mental script. That not knowing the future was exciting instead of scary. It really worked for me.

    1. Exciting, eh? I'm going to try that. Thank you.

  2. Good for you for doing this. I seriously think it's the right move, and I hope it starts to make you feel better soon.

    1. Me too! I'm still embarassed to go, but it's better than being bat shit crazy:-)