Is 2013 over yet? No? Dang.
Anyway, I spent the weekend going from sad, to angry, to FURIOUS. My poor husband was sick with a cold, and I took it all out on his ailing behind. *sigh* I am a sorry excuse for a wife, right?
I feel awful for the way I treated him. I'll do better next time. I promise.
My period still hasn't started yet. It only took three days to start, after the last failure. It looks like this time, it will take at least five days. Witch Doctor told me to come back for another HCG to make sure the numbers are dropping, but I decided to be MATURE and IGNORE her (I hope you felt the sarcasm in that statement). I'll go if my cycle doesn't start by day six. If there's one thing my body is really good at, it's NOT being pregnant. I don't want to start doubting its abilities now.
Some people may question that decision and my decision not to take drugs an extra day. I feel like I should kind of explain why. There's a story in the Bay Area. A 13-year-old girl went in for tonsil surgery, and later died from complications. She's brain dead. Her parents won't accept it. They have forced the hospital to keep her on a breathing tub. My heart breaks for them. I feel so passionately about them that when people say mean things about them, I defend them like they're my family. I can't imagine their pain. So when Witch Doctor told me my numbers weren't meeting standards, I knew that for my own mental health, I had to immediately let go. I won't even write chemical pregnancy on my timeline. It was never a pregnancy. It's a failed attempt.
So back to me and the wait for my period: I figure since my butt is still lumpy from those progesterone shots, and (TMI WARNING) I still leak small globs of the progesterone gel, my body is still coming down off the hormones. I took considerably more drugs for this FET than the last one.
I can honestly say the emotional pain is not nearly as bad this time, which scares me a little. It hurt. There's no denying that. But the day isn't colored black like before. The day sucks, but it's not black. I will call that a small victory. I'm still bitter, but I think that's normal (?).
That's all from me. Happy New Year to all.
Oh Wait, don't pay for PGS. It's not worth it. I've flushed four chromosomally normal embryos down the toilet. #awesome.
Anyway, I spent the weekend going from sad, to angry, to FURIOUS. My poor husband was sick with a cold, and I took it all out on his ailing behind. *sigh* I am a sorry excuse for a wife, right?
I feel awful for the way I treated him. I'll do better next time. I promise.
My period still hasn't started yet. It only took three days to start, after the last failure. It looks like this time, it will take at least five days. Witch Doctor told me to come back for another HCG to make sure the numbers are dropping, but I decided to be MATURE and IGNORE her (I hope you felt the sarcasm in that statement). I'll go if my cycle doesn't start by day six. If there's one thing my body is really good at, it's NOT being pregnant. I don't want to start doubting its abilities now.
Some people may question that decision and my decision not to take drugs an extra day. I feel like I should kind of explain why. There's a story in the Bay Area. A 13-year-old girl went in for tonsil surgery, and later died from complications. She's brain dead. Her parents won't accept it. They have forced the hospital to keep her on a breathing tub. My heart breaks for them. I feel so passionately about them that when people say mean things about them, I defend them like they're my family. I can't imagine their pain. So when Witch Doctor told me my numbers weren't meeting standards, I knew that for my own mental health, I had to immediately let go. I won't even write chemical pregnancy on my timeline. It was never a pregnancy. It's a failed attempt.
So back to me and the wait for my period: I figure since my butt is still lumpy from those progesterone shots, and (TMI WARNING) I still leak small globs of the progesterone gel, my body is still coming down off the hormones. I took considerably more drugs for this FET than the last one.
I can honestly say the emotional pain is not nearly as bad this time, which scares me a little. It hurt. There's no denying that. But the day isn't colored black like before. The day sucks, but it's not black. I will call that a small victory. I'm still bitter, but I think that's normal (?).
That's all from me. Happy New Year to all.
Oh Wait, don't pay for PGS. It's not worth it. I've flushed four chromosomally normal embryos down the toilet. #awesome.
Aramis, I am exceptionally sassy:-) I spent Thursday and Friday sulking and sad, so the sass feels really good. By the way, I really appreciate you so much.
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