Ugh...My acupuncture dude kind of knocked the wind out of my sails today. He said my pulse felt weak and not "big" enough for pregnancy. He kept telling me stories about women who kept trying and it finally worked. These little anecdotes didn't make me feel any better. He went on to poke me with one needle in the top of my head and sent me on my way.
Since that moment, I've been trying to connect with the twins, hoping that they will hear my chant of stick and grow. But I'm not sure..I mean doubt is creeping in more than it has for the past week. I kind of want to curl up on my new comfy couch, suck my thumb (which I haven't done since I was about seven), and rest. I can't do that because I have to work to pay off my infertility debts.
I'm not going to sneak a test today because it could quite possibly break me. Instead, I'm focusing on finishing this work day, packing tonight and hopping a plane tomorrow.
I've set up an appointment to get my Beta tested in Florida on Saturday, but I might skip it. I don't know. I'm kind of sad right now.
Here's to hoping my babies are ignoring my poor attitude and sticking and growing...AND that a giant, tasty cookie falls from the sky and into my lap.
#FINISH
Since that moment, I've been trying to connect with the twins, hoping that they will hear my chant of stick and grow. But I'm not sure..I mean doubt is creeping in more than it has for the past week. I kind of want to curl up on my new comfy couch, suck my thumb (which I haven't done since I was about seven), and rest. I can't do that because I have to work to pay off my infertility debts.
I'm not going to sneak a test today because it could quite possibly break me. Instead, I'm focusing on finishing this work day, packing tonight and hopping a plane tomorrow.
I've set up an appointment to get my Beta tested in Florida on Saturday, but I might skip it. I don't know. I'm kind of sad right now.
Here's to hoping my babies are ignoring my poor attitude and sticking and growing...AND that a giant, tasty cookie falls from the sky and into my lap.
#FINISH
I adore you...but I'm not a big fan of Acupuncture Dude at the moment (first 'no head massages' and now this?)
ReplyDeleteSending lots of 'Stick and Grow' thoughts and prayers your way.
Hugs!
Keep positive! Don't let that dude get you down. Stick and Grow!! I'll be thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteI'm trying my best to stay positive. Thank you so much!
DeleteIgnore your acupunture person. What a thing to say. You are doing well to have got to 6dpt without testing - I applaud you. Good luck.
ReplyDeleteBy the way, I nominated you for the Super Sweet Blogging Award.
Thanks for the nomination. That's awesome:-)
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